Saturday, July 07, 2007
Now with that out of the way.. here's what's been going on these few days...
It's actually quite apt that the 4th of July is the American Independence Day.. cos it so happens to also be MY Independence Day... Yup... 4th of July 2007, was the day I could finally refer to myself as a graduate... But somehow... I wasn't very excited about it... all the way till the ceremony in school... Guess I just kinda felt that it was something that I just had to go through just to get that piece of paper... Part of my just couldn't wait to get it over and done with... and to finally walk out of NUS... bringing with me the good memories of the times I spent with my friends... and walking away from all the bad memories...
I guess it was also partly cos it wasn't quite the way I envisioned my graduation to be like... I actually wanted to graduate with hons.. but.. somehow... it lost its appeal somewhere down the line... I actually wanted to graduate with my other friends doing hons... but... that wasn't to be either... I thought I could graduate with someone special by my side, like so many of the couples I saw that day... but that wasn't to be either...
So, I just had to be content with graduating with my friends... which, as I realised, wasn't such a bad thing either... Although there were quite a few of my friends who weren't graduating just yet... just as many were graduating with me too... And those also were the friends who actually made life in uni bearable... How could I forget the lameness of hendrick and his friends? Or the xiao char bo Kareen, my lecture mate and bitching buddy? She's probably been one of the friends I could really count on in my darkest of days...
Hendrick... one lameass guy... lol...
Me, Hendrick and Kareen... life's always fun when they're around, probably cos the two of us are always teasing Kareen... lol
Ultimate lab mates, Wenyan and Bryan... lol... Lab wouldn't be the same without you guys..
Daniel... see!! Those are the flower's Yimei gave us... but she had a bigger one for 'someone' else... lol... so jealous... xD
Tariq... another funny guy... where's your bang bus? lol...
Bryan... cool person... always nice to chat with...
Marie... Another somewhat xiao char bo... Imagine her being a teacher next time!! Lol...
Can't forget Pin Tsin... my project mate in Evolution... haha... How fun were those labs eh?Let's not forget my lab mates, Wenyan and Bryan... who, cos of our surnames, always found a way to end up on the same lab bench for 3 modules... Giving way to lots of laughs and fun during what could have been boring labs... And then, as always, there's Daniel, Bryan, Tariq and the rest of the group... although I may not have always joined their group for all their activities, they've always made me feel like a part of their group when we do go out for supper, or any activities...
JJ... Friends for so long... thanks for the encouragement mate!!
Kar Heng... Another long time friend from JC... Dun stress hor...Then there's the friends who made the trouble to come down eventhough they weren't graduating, JJ and Kar Heng.. although Kar Heng was late.. lol.. but still... I do appreciate the effort... I even managed to run into Yimei.. who, although she came mainly for someone else, bought a flower for me too.. lol... Never really had anyone give me a flower before.. Hehe... it's still sitting on my desk... hasn't even wilted yet, as strong as our friendship since JC... Really appreciate the thought Mei... =)
But with all good things, they still come with the bad... my trip in NUS has definitely been very eventful, full of ups and downs... But what doesn't kill me only makes me stronger, I'll bend but not break in the wind... I'll roll with the punches that life throws me... and I'll come back up fighting... I made that promise to my bro... and I never make a promise that I can't keep...
And of course... I can't forget my parents... who've done so much for me... I guess when Nic asked me the other day the point of going to this ceremony, I didn't think much of the reason, until that day... I actually couldn't really be bothered whether or not I went for the ceremony... it was more for my parents.. who gave so much for me to study in uni and to see me graduate... I guess I just wanted to give them something back to remember it... The pictures, the cert, even the ceremony itself, they're the moments frozen in time... moments they've been waiting for for 24 years... Guess that was also the reason what I chose to drive them to the ceremony on that day... They've done a lot for me, its the least I could do for them...
And now, its time I started giving back... I just want to give them a peaceful retirement after everything... which also means I've got to be able to support them, myself, and my future, including my future family and expenses... It may sound like a great deal, but its something I'll gladly take on for them...
I know sometimes I get irritated by them, when they nag to no end... I may get irritated by that... but ultimately, I do want to give them a good retirement... eventhough they may not know about it at all... Ultimately, that is one of my long term goals...
You guys may notice that this post is kinda feel good sometimes... and yes... it is... I'm choosing to reflect on the positive... and not let the negative affect me... which is also why I'm not going to mention my bad memories... I think I've done enough of that for the past year or so... I'm tired of it...
I just want a new start... and by finally being able to leave NUS, I just might get it... I don't know what my future holds... but I do know one thing... It is still MY choice in what I want to do... anything else that I can't control, I'll just have to roll with it... but if there's a chance that I may have a choice, then I'll fight for it... The good with the bad... you can't have one without the other...
This is getting long... oh well... Here's a special thanks to the other people who aren't graduating, but still made being in NUS worthwhile... Thanks Nic, Callie, Xu Zi, Calvin, the Bandits, Shumei, Marie, the LS guys who are doing their Hons, the Blast ppl... and anyone else I may have missed out... too many to list I guess...
Feel free to call me out for lunch/dinner/supper... I'll always make time for you guys... =)
Labels: musings, random thoughts
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Tuesday, March 20, 2007
Chingay
Chingay was good... damn fun... tiring but fun... Too bad the tv cameras were focused elsewhere... We weren't even featured on TV... oh well... too bad for those watching at home, the good show was at the parade itself... and not on TV... ;)
And the after party was even better... Hehe... first time I saw strangers just dancing along to everything, even having mock dance battles on the spot... Too bad sometimes it was spoiled by people who seriously couldn't dance... You could just feel the atmosphere change the moment they entered the circle... quite awkward...
But there was this auntie who was damn enthu... Even grooved along with us... and wanted to dance for 5 more mins!! Haha... And all around us, there were people with hp cameras, SLR cameras and video cams just taking in the atmosphere... Haha...
Even I got kinda carried away... got "caught" doing a "scandalous" dance with Nic... Lol... Which actually... wasn't even THAT scandalous... just that when I'm dancing with someone who's got good chemistry with me, I can't really be bothered about anything else going on around me... Haha... Some people... hai~... always jump to conclusions... Nic's just my dancing/clubbing buddy, someone I can really groove with... as proven with all those other times we clubbed... *wink* Hee... PS. Hope someone else doesn't mind... Lol...
Impresario
Then after all that was done with, it was about a few more weeks to Impresario... Ugh... that ugly thorn in my side for the past 3 months... Not that I'm not happy that I took part in it, it certainly was a good experience... just that their planning could seriously have been better... I mean come on... Only 7 minutes on stage to do blocking AND lighting with music?? WTH?? We're not singers, we're dancers... We move around much more than they do... They really think 7 minutes is enough to do all that for a 3.5min item? Sheesh... Plus many other things which I'll not say...
On a good note... The Bandits won!! We were all kinda shocked really... I tot the MC was pulling our leg again... he did the same sequence during the full dress rehearsal... called Project Runway out for Best Costume, and called us out for Best Dance... deja vu seriously... Looking back, everyone was really working hard for impre... all the 3 teams were practicing damn hard all the way till the time slot for us... We were all practicing like on the day before, Friday, after Hip Hop Night, once results were announced for that, we all rushed to AS7... and practiced till 1am... all out each time... Even got a pseudo "SYTYCD" judging panel consisting of Calvin, Roz and Hamzah... Heh... Very thankful to them for providing advice on where to improve... our last practice was good... Hehe...
Everyone was damn stressed, considering that we had only finished the choreo on the wed the same week... 4 days before finals... and had only one practice left... which was the friday before finals... Thankfully, we managed to pull through... Great teamwork guys... Oh, and apologies if I was a bit authoritative sometimes... I guess I believed so much that we had a good chance of winning, I felt some pushing was in order sometimes... =P But... all that hard work was worth it... The late nights, the days spent wracking our brains for choreo... Which I might add, was great!! We can finally be content that this was a group effort... the last song having everyone's choreo in there... Hehe... Well done guys!! Bandits party soon k!! Lol...
Then once Impresario ended... it was back to clearing up all my work that I pushed aside for Impresario practices.. catching up on lectures cos I skipped them, oversleeping cos of the tiring practice the day before... Sorting out all the assignments, CAs and projects that had to be done... I even made a list of what has to be done... most fall on the same due date... ugh... It's only been 2 weeks since Impresario... but it seemed much longer for me...
Post Impresario
Last week saw my mugging for my CAs and finishing my stuff for my business presentation... Got so packed that I didn't sleep on tues night at all... 2 assignments and a presentation due on wed... finished up the assignments at 5am... and I had to be in school at 8am... meaning I had to leave home at 6plus... so... wat sleep sia?? If I went to sleep, I probably wouldn't have been able to wake up... so... I went to school on wed deprived of sleep for 24 hours... finished the presentation... great job guys... now we've got the report left... handed up the assignments... then went for Blast Jnr AND Snr class... been so long since I went for class...
As much as I hated to miss class, I kinda had to... To me, Impresario practices came first.. and since the rest were jrs, couldn't really ask them to skip class... and I skipped class instead... met them after my lab and their jnr class for practice... Sure I got a bit of flak for that... So what? My priority was still to the Impresario team... And since Pat didn't say anything about it the next time I went for class, I guess its ok... Not like I'm going to make it a habit anyway...
Seriously, going for jnr and snr class was really pushing it... even watching video's on Joo Teng's laptop while in the dance studio was already making me feel a bit... 'high' if you know what I mean... kinda like Captain Jack Sparrow... savvvaay?? Think the term a certain someone would use is.. loopy.. *winks*
And the sporadic naps on the train to and from school didn't help much either... Funny thing was... when I got home... I still couldn't sleep... till at least 2am... So... I went sleep deprived for about 40 hrs... I guess cos of all that... my bio clock is still kinda screwed up...
I had trouble sleeping for the past 2 nights... random thoughts and scenarios ran through my head... my responding to certain situations that might never happen... me doing things that haven't happened yet... kinda weird... and I swear that all the while, I was awake... just that my mind was running on its own...
Guess thats y I went for a run just now at 11pm... tried to clear my head... and I think it did somewhat... I'll only know when I go to sleep later...
I did get one thing clear though... sometimes, the best solution, is an illogical solution... lol... If you guys can't understand it... feel free to ask me... I'll do my best to explain it to you... Haha...
Looks to be another packed week ahead... project meetings, lunch meetings, bday dinner for my parents, study meetings, movie outings... sometimes I run around so much, I wish I drove man...
Some people will never understand my love for driving... I don't think my parents fully understand either... Only a few of my friends do... and well... in SG, its kinda hard to own a car... so renting one will have to do for now... once a month or less if I can... hehe... To put things concise... Driving is one of the few things that can really put a smile on my face... and I'm not talking about a little smirk or watever... but a big grin... nearly Cheshire cat like grin... esp on the friday before impre finals when I rented a 2.0l Mitsubishi Galant to drive back home after practice... and send everyone else who needed a lift home too... Nic saw that grin of mine... Hehe...
My first time driving a 2.0l... and boy... was it good!! Great pickup, smooth control... It was only later on that I realised why I grinned like a 6 yr old... It was Rear wheel drive too... Apologies to people who aren't interested in cars... but I've always had a preference for RWDs... no wonder I enjoyed that drive so much... in fact... I'm grinning again right now... just remembering what it was like to drive that car... =D
Think I'd better stop here before I get carried away... Its 2am... time for bed... swimming, project meeting and studying tmr!!
Labels: musings, random thoughts, Rants
you have just Slacked with Chris @ 1:23 AM
