Saturday, July 07, 2007
Now with that out of the way.. here's what's been going on these few days...
It's actually quite apt that the 4th of July is the American Independence Day.. cos it so happens to also be MY Independence Day... Yup... 4th of July 2007, was the day I could finally refer to myself as a graduate... But somehow... I wasn't very excited about it... all the way till the ceremony in school... Guess I just kinda felt that it was something that I just had to go through just to get that piece of paper... Part of my just couldn't wait to get it over and done with... and to finally walk out of NUS... bringing with me the good memories of the times I spent with my friends... and walking away from all the bad memories...
I guess it was also partly cos it wasn't quite the way I envisioned my graduation to be like... I actually wanted to graduate with hons.. but.. somehow... it lost its appeal somewhere down the line... I actually wanted to graduate with my other friends doing hons... but... that wasn't to be either... I thought I could graduate with someone special by my side, like so many of the couples I saw that day... but that wasn't to be either...
So, I just had to be content with graduating with my friends... which, as I realised, wasn't such a bad thing either... Although there were quite a few of my friends who weren't graduating just yet... just as many were graduating with me too... And those also were the friends who actually made life in uni bearable... How could I forget the lameness of hendrick and his friends? Or the xiao char bo Kareen, my lecture mate and bitching buddy? She's probably been one of the friends I could really count on in my darkest of days...
Hendrick... one lameass guy... lol...
Me, Hendrick and Kareen... life's always fun when they're around, probably cos the two of us are always teasing Kareen... lol
Ultimate lab mates, Wenyan and Bryan... lol... Lab wouldn't be the same without you guys..
Daniel... see!! Those are the flower's Yimei gave us... but she had a bigger one for 'someone' else... lol... so jealous... xD
Tariq... another funny guy... where's your bang bus? lol...
Bryan... cool person... always nice to chat with...
Marie... Another somewhat xiao char bo... Imagine her being a teacher next time!! Lol...
Can't forget Pin Tsin... my project mate in Evolution... haha... How fun were those labs eh?Let's not forget my lab mates, Wenyan and Bryan... who, cos of our surnames, always found a way to end up on the same lab bench for 3 modules... Giving way to lots of laughs and fun during what could have been boring labs... And then, as always, there's Daniel, Bryan, Tariq and the rest of the group... although I may not have always joined their group for all their activities, they've always made me feel like a part of their group when we do go out for supper, or any activities...
JJ... Friends for so long... thanks for the encouragement mate!!
Kar Heng... Another long time friend from JC... Dun stress hor...Then there's the friends who made the trouble to come down eventhough they weren't graduating, JJ and Kar Heng.. although Kar Heng was late.. lol.. but still... I do appreciate the effort... I even managed to run into Yimei.. who, although she came mainly for someone else, bought a flower for me too.. lol... Never really had anyone give me a flower before.. Hehe... it's still sitting on my desk... hasn't even wilted yet, as strong as our friendship since JC... Really appreciate the thought Mei... =)
But with all good things, they still come with the bad... my trip in NUS has definitely been very eventful, full of ups and downs... But what doesn't kill me only makes me stronger, I'll bend but not break in the wind... I'll roll with the punches that life throws me... and I'll come back up fighting... I made that promise to my bro... and I never make a promise that I can't keep...
And of course... I can't forget my parents... who've done so much for me... I guess when Nic asked me the other day the point of going to this ceremony, I didn't think much of the reason, until that day... I actually couldn't really be bothered whether or not I went for the ceremony... it was more for my parents.. who gave so much for me to study in uni and to see me graduate... I guess I just wanted to give them something back to remember it... The pictures, the cert, even the ceremony itself, they're the moments frozen in time... moments they've been waiting for for 24 years... Guess that was also the reason what I chose to drive them to the ceremony on that day... They've done a lot for me, its the least I could do for them...
And now, its time I started giving back... I just want to give them a peaceful retirement after everything... which also means I've got to be able to support them, myself, and my future, including my future family and expenses... It may sound like a great deal, but its something I'll gladly take on for them...
I know sometimes I get irritated by them, when they nag to no end... I may get irritated by that... but ultimately, I do want to give them a good retirement... eventhough they may not know about it at all... Ultimately, that is one of my long term goals...
You guys may notice that this post is kinda feel good sometimes... and yes... it is... I'm choosing to reflect on the positive... and not let the negative affect me... which is also why I'm not going to mention my bad memories... I think I've done enough of that for the past year or so... I'm tired of it...
I just want a new start... and by finally being able to leave NUS, I just might get it... I don't know what my future holds... but I do know one thing... It is still MY choice in what I want to do... anything else that I can't control, I'll just have to roll with it... but if there's a chance that I may have a choice, then I'll fight for it... The good with the bad... you can't have one without the other...
This is getting long... oh well... Here's a special thanks to the other people who aren't graduating, but still made being in NUS worthwhile... Thanks Nic, Callie, Xu Zi, Calvin, the Bandits, Shumei, Marie, the LS guys who are doing their Hons, the Blast ppl... and anyone else I may have missed out... too many to list I guess...
Feel free to call me out for lunch/dinner/supper... I'll always make time for you guys... =)
Labels: musings, random thoughts
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