Wednesday, April 09, 2008


My oh my... it's been so long since I've been back here... Oh well... When you've got other things that have to be done first, blogging kinda takes a back seat... In fact, lots of things take a back seat these days... It's just the priorities that I've set for myself I guess... Career/business first, friends and family second... everything else can wait... Everything else has been put on hold... dance, blogging, sometimes, I even have to sacrifice my gym time just because I'm so tired I want that extra 2 hrs of sleep...

Working from home is totally different to working in a commercial building or whatnot... When you work outside of home, at least sometimes, you have the choice of not having to work WHEN you're home... but when you're working at home... EVERYTHING can be work for you... But then again... I did choose this path to walk on... so I'm not really complaining... I just have to keep at it... I know that sooner or later, things will start to pay off for me... and once they do, that's just gonna be the stepping stone to even greater things... so all I have to do is curb that impatience that crops up sometimes, just look ahead and move forward...

It's 3.20am... and I'm writing this cos I couldn't sleep... Been in a pensive mood again these few days... And not cos my darling computer (yes, that's the darling I'm referring to on my facebook.. lol...) got hit by a virus and I spent nearly 3 days repairing the damage... but rather... another kind of repair has been going on... one that's taken much longer, and will probably continue on for some time... It's this repairing that's made me pensive/reflective...

Sometimes, I do feel like I'm deliberately distancing myself... but at other times, I kinda feel that I actually can start to open up, only to catch myself doing it and trying to close up again... Guess its probably cos I don't like to get things wrong more than once... I know people say its good to learn from your mistakes, and I do subscribe to that too, just that... I find it pointless and a waste of time if you don't learn from your mistake the first time and continue to do the wrong thing, that will only invite more trouble...

I am learning from things that I did wrong, and sometimes, I may not have been the one who made that error, but the outcome wasn't what I really expected... And because of that, some small minute part of me, feels that if there was another opportunity, it should be taken to really do my best this time... Thats not to say that previous time wasn't my best, but maybe its just the choices I made... I did what I could have then, but the next time, it WILL be different, maybe better even...

I guess what's making me pensive is that I'm not sure if I'll ever encounter those so-called opportunities again... and it kinda irritates me that I might have wasted that opportunity... You know the saying, curiousity killed the cat, but then again, I'm not a cat, so I might not die...

I do admit though... I am not the person I once was when I started writing on this blog so long ago... and I do hope that I've become a better person after all these years... Sometimes I hear my inner self berating me, "You silly dunce, of course you've become better, what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger"...

Well... I can probably say that I've found the path I want to walk on, I may not have found all the people I can share this path with, but I know I'll find them eventually... I will not deviate from this path that I've envisioned, this is the biggest risk I've ever decided to take, and right now, there is no turning back... I will travel it till I reach my goals...

Heh... if only the other things in life were as easy as that eh.. Heh... Somehow I think choosing the path you want to take is the easiest thing one can do...

In the end, it all boils down to choice again... The word that I'm so familiar with, and that I carry with me all the time... Choice... Small word, but very powerful indeed...

you have just Slacked with Chris @ 3:02 AM

Comments: Post a Comment

Slkrz blog
This blog is the sum of a remainder of an unbalanced reasoning inherent to the thinking of the mind. It is the eventuality of an anomaly, which despite my sincerest efforts I have been unable to eliminate from what is otherwise a harmony of mind and body. While it remains a burden assiduously avoided, it is not unexpected, and thus not beyond a measure of control. Which has led me, inexorably, here. (Yeah. It's edited from Matrix Reloaded, so bite me)

I am
Chris
24
Singapore
Resident Slacker Boi

Reading
This blog
Listening
Apologize - Timbaland (ft One Republic)
Saying
Shit happens, it's how you deal with them that defines one as an individual
Loving
Sports cars
Driving cars
Driving sports cars... Get the picture?
Great character
Reading
Playing piano
Canoeing
Swimming
Slacking 0_o
Surfing the net
Hip hop
Hating
Gutless cowards
Irritaters
Hyperactive kids
Road hogs
Kiasu Singaporeans (namely the aunties though)
Slackers
Site Meter


NUS BLAST!
Adeline
Carol
Daniel
Heng
Hocky
Jean
Matthew
Marie
Mei
Qibi
Shiming
Yongzhi

PHOTOS!
SG Diecast Forums
Blue Oasis Cafe
Bash.org
Break.com
Jitterbugs Swingapore
SGDrifters
SGforums
Studio Wu
Mr. Boombastick
That Video Site
Xiao Xiao
Blogskins
Blogger


My blog is worth $10,161.72.
How much is your blog worth?

Quick one before I have to leave for dinner..Got t...
First post of the New Year... Err.. ok... so? Lol....
Another year's almost gone.. and this year.. I act...
Thanks to all those who sent birthday wishes to me...
Whoops.. been neglecting this blog a bit too much....
Finally have some time to post something on this n...
Been seriously pigging out for the last 3 days... ...
Public holidays are some of the worst days to call...
This definitely has to go on here... Watched The S...
Found a new 'feel good' song!! It's actually an ol...

adopt your own virtual pet!

03/01/2004 - 04/01/2004
04/01/2004 - 05/01/2004
05/01/2004 - 06/01/2004
06/01/2004 - 07/01/2004
07/01/2004 - 08/01/2004
08/01/2004 - 09/01/2004
09/01/2004 - 10/01/2004
10/01/2004 - 11/01/2004
11/01/2004 - 12/01/2004
12/01/2004 - 01/01/2005
01/01/2005 - 02/01/2005
02/01/2005 - 03/01/2005
03/01/2005 - 04/01/2005
04/01/2005 - 05/01/2005
05/01/2005 - 06/01/2005
06/01/2005 - 07/01/2005
07/01/2005 - 08/01/2005
08/01/2005 - 09/01/2005
09/01/2005 - 10/01/2005
10/01/2005 - 11/01/2005
11/01/2005 - 12/01/2005
12/01/2005 - 01/01/2006
01/01/2006 - 02/01/2006
02/01/2006 - 03/01/2006
03/01/2006 - 04/01/2006
04/01/2006 - 05/01/2006
05/01/2006 - 06/01/2006
06/01/2006 - 07/01/2006
07/01/2006 - 08/01/2006
08/01/2006 - 09/01/2006
09/01/2006 - 10/01/2006
10/01/2006 - 11/01/2006
11/01/2006 - 12/01/2006
12/01/2006 - 01/01/2007
01/01/2007 - 02/01/2007
02/01/2007 - 03/01/2007
03/01/2007 - 04/01/2007
04/01/2007 - 05/01/2007
05/01/2007 - 06/01/2007
06/01/2007 - 07/01/2007
07/01/2007 - 08/01/2007
08/01/2007 - 09/01/2007
09/01/2007 - 10/01/2007
11/01/2007 - 12/01/2007
12/01/2007 - 01/01/2008
01/01/2008 - 02/01/2008
04/01/2008 - 05/01/2008
05/01/2008 - 06/01/2008
06/01/2008 - 07/01/2008

blogger
blogskins

designed by Clone, only at BlogSkins

Get awesome blog templates like this one from BlogSkins.com