Wednesday, March 28, 2007
You are seeking an affectionate relationship, offering fulfilment and happiness. You are capable of powerful emotional enthusiasm. Deep down, you are a kind loving person, always helpful and willing to adapt yourself if necessary to realise the bond of affection that you desire. But you need the same consideration and understanding from others and it is this need that will sometimes hold you back... so let go, trust and you may pleasantly surprised at what happens.
You are experiencing considerable difficulty trying to achieve your goals. As a consequence of this you are becoming more and more irritable. Your friends and acquaintances are finding it increasingly more difficult to appease or to reason with you. You are the cause of your own problems. Don't be so impulsive. It is your vacillation that can lead to problems and uncertainties. Ease up a little.
The way things are at this time it is necessary to 'go slow'. All the pleasures that you have anticipated should be left in abeyance until some future date, but all is not lost, you are able to derive and achieve considerable gratification from someone quite close to you.
You are experiencing considerable stress which is essentially the result of on going rejection and hostility. You are in the unpleasant position where offers of trust, affection and understanding are being withheld and you are being treaded with a degrading lack of consideration. You feel that you are being denied the appreciation that you deserve, which is essential to your well-being and self-esteem, but you have to face up to the situation because as matters stand at this time there is little that you can do about it - you feel that you are getting nowhere and the continuous struggle is a lonely one: all difficulties and no encouragement. Whatever you try to say or do is met with continuous hostility and no matter how much you protest you are consistently misunderstood. You need to escape from the situation but you are so perplexed that you cannot find the strength of mind to make the necessary decision.
You are inclined to be too trusting and you feel that you need to be on your guard against the possibility that your endeavours and actions may be misunderstood. Too often you have been taken advantage of and you have been mentally abused. Now you are seeking a relationship which can provide peace of mind, where you can be yourself and not have the need to put on a false front.
Ok... that's actually quite freaky... and somewhat... accurate... I have to admit... Guess its just the thought of me graduating soon... and seeing so many things that I could do, might want to do and should do... Just throws me a curve ball sometimes... If I could, I'd want to do all of them... but there's only 24 hours in a day... so some things have got to give... In the end, it still comes back to what I've been saying all along... Choices...But then... I'm still got time now... to choose carefully and be aware of the consequences that come with that choice... good or bad... I'm starting to lean towards a certain direction... Just got to clear my work so I can really start to think about it...
Heh.. Everyone's talking about deadlines? What are deadlines? =P And yes... I DO have deadlines too...
Labels: musings
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Friday, March 23, 2007
"I received an email from a confused student.
Yes, there will be two lectures on the evening of 22nd March as timetabled (assuming, for example, I am not abducted by giant molluscs from the planet Zog while I'm walking home tonight). The Powerpoints have already been mounted on IVLE (the molluscs insisted)."
LOL...
I just LOVE brit humour... dry, caustic and sarcastic wit... Just too bad most people dun really get their humour... Haha.... Think they'd get offended instead... sheesh... *roll eyes*
I'd just laugh at it... hahaha....
you have just Slacked with Chris @ 12:12 AM
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
Chingay
Chingay was good... damn fun... tiring but fun... Too bad the tv cameras were focused elsewhere... We weren't even featured on TV... oh well... too bad for those watching at home, the good show was at the parade itself... and not on TV... ;)
And the after party was even better... Hehe... first time I saw strangers just dancing along to everything, even having mock dance battles on the spot... Too bad sometimes it was spoiled by people who seriously couldn't dance... You could just feel the atmosphere change the moment they entered the circle... quite awkward...
But there was this auntie who was damn enthu... Even grooved along with us... and wanted to dance for 5 more mins!! Haha... And all around us, there were people with hp cameras, SLR cameras and video cams just taking in the atmosphere... Haha...
Even I got kinda carried away... got "caught" doing a "scandalous" dance with Nic... Lol... Which actually... wasn't even THAT scandalous... just that when I'm dancing with someone who's got good chemistry with me, I can't really be bothered about anything else going on around me... Haha... Some people... hai~... always jump to conclusions... Nic's just my dancing/clubbing buddy, someone I can really groove with... as proven with all those other times we clubbed... *wink* Hee... PS. Hope someone else doesn't mind... Lol...
Impresario
Then after all that was done with, it was about a few more weeks to Impresario... Ugh... that ugly thorn in my side for the past 3 months... Not that I'm not happy that I took part in it, it certainly was a good experience... just that their planning could seriously have been better... I mean come on... Only 7 minutes on stage to do blocking AND lighting with music?? WTH?? We're not singers, we're dancers... We move around much more than they do... They really think 7 minutes is enough to do all that for a 3.5min item? Sheesh... Plus many other things which I'll not say...
On a good note... The Bandits won!! We were all kinda shocked really... I tot the MC was pulling our leg again... he did the same sequence during the full dress rehearsal... called Project Runway out for Best Costume, and called us out for Best Dance... deja vu seriously... Looking back, everyone was really working hard for impre... all the 3 teams were practicing damn hard all the way till the time slot for us... We were all practicing like on the day before, Friday, after Hip Hop Night, once results were announced for that, we all rushed to AS7... and practiced till 1am... all out each time... Even got a pseudo "SYTYCD" judging panel consisting of Calvin, Roz and Hamzah... Heh... Very thankful to them for providing advice on where to improve... our last practice was good... Hehe...
Everyone was damn stressed, considering that we had only finished the choreo on the wed the same week... 4 days before finals... and had only one practice left... which was the friday before finals... Thankfully, we managed to pull through... Great teamwork guys... Oh, and apologies if I was a bit authoritative sometimes... I guess I believed so much that we had a good chance of winning, I felt some pushing was in order sometimes... =P But... all that hard work was worth it... The late nights, the days spent wracking our brains for choreo... Which I might add, was great!! We can finally be content that this was a group effort... the last song having everyone's choreo in there... Hehe... Well done guys!! Bandits party soon k!! Lol...
Then once Impresario ended... it was back to clearing up all my work that I pushed aside for Impresario practices.. catching up on lectures cos I skipped them, oversleeping cos of the tiring practice the day before... Sorting out all the assignments, CAs and projects that had to be done... I even made a list of what has to be done... most fall on the same due date... ugh... It's only been 2 weeks since Impresario... but it seemed much longer for me...
Post Impresario
Last week saw my mugging for my CAs and finishing my stuff for my business presentation... Got so packed that I didn't sleep on tues night at all... 2 assignments and a presentation due on wed... finished up the assignments at 5am... and I had to be in school at 8am... meaning I had to leave home at 6plus... so... wat sleep sia?? If I went to sleep, I probably wouldn't have been able to wake up... so... I went to school on wed deprived of sleep for 24 hours... finished the presentation... great job guys... now we've got the report left... handed up the assignments... then went for Blast Jnr AND Snr class... been so long since I went for class...
As much as I hated to miss class, I kinda had to... To me, Impresario practices came first.. and since the rest were jrs, couldn't really ask them to skip class... and I skipped class instead... met them after my lab and their jnr class for practice... Sure I got a bit of flak for that... So what? My priority was still to the Impresario team... And since Pat didn't say anything about it the next time I went for class, I guess its ok... Not like I'm going to make it a habit anyway...
Seriously, going for jnr and snr class was really pushing it... even watching video's on Joo Teng's laptop while in the dance studio was already making me feel a bit... 'high' if you know what I mean... kinda like Captain Jack Sparrow... savvvaay?? Think the term a certain someone would use is.. loopy.. *winks*
And the sporadic naps on the train to and from school didn't help much either... Funny thing was... when I got home... I still couldn't sleep... till at least 2am... So... I went sleep deprived for about 40 hrs... I guess cos of all that... my bio clock is still kinda screwed up...
I had trouble sleeping for the past 2 nights... random thoughts and scenarios ran through my head... my responding to certain situations that might never happen... me doing things that haven't happened yet... kinda weird... and I swear that all the while, I was awake... just that my mind was running on its own...
Guess thats y I went for a run just now at 11pm... tried to clear my head... and I think it did somewhat... I'll only know when I go to sleep later...
I did get one thing clear though... sometimes, the best solution, is an illogical solution... lol... If you guys can't understand it... feel free to ask me... I'll do my best to explain it to you... Haha...
Looks to be another packed week ahead... project meetings, lunch meetings, bday dinner for my parents, study meetings, movie outings... sometimes I run around so much, I wish I drove man...
Some people will never understand my love for driving... I don't think my parents fully understand either... Only a few of my friends do... and well... in SG, its kinda hard to own a car... so renting one will have to do for now... once a month or less if I can... hehe... To put things concise... Driving is one of the few things that can really put a smile on my face... and I'm not talking about a little smirk or watever... but a big grin... nearly Cheshire cat like grin... esp on the friday before impre finals when I rented a 2.0l Mitsubishi Galant to drive back home after practice... and send everyone else who needed a lift home too... Nic saw that grin of mine... Hehe...
My first time driving a 2.0l... and boy... was it good!! Great pickup, smooth control... It was only later on that I realised why I grinned like a 6 yr old... It was Rear wheel drive too... Apologies to people who aren't interested in cars... but I've always had a preference for RWDs... no wonder I enjoyed that drive so much... in fact... I'm grinning again right now... just remembering what it was like to drive that car... =D
Think I'd better stop here before I get carried away... Its 2am... time for bed... swimming, project meeting and studying tmr!!
Labels: musings, random thoughts, Rants
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