Friday, January 27, 2006
So I complimented him on that and we started talking... Found out he's in SG for 2 years, teaching at the Japanese school opposite NUS... heh... he's also trying to get PR here to stay... Then I found out that back in Japan, he's actually been doing break dancing for 5 years already... Woah... Heh... And he doesn't look that young either... he could be my uncle man... heh... That's quite inspiring actually... heh... That a guy that old can still do a handstand with no problem... Man... guess I'm not THAT old after all...
We started talking and I got to learn a few moves from him... quite fun too... heh... Tot me how to develop the necessary strength for the handstand... Tot me the 6 step too... Now I finally get how the pros do it... heh... Sometimes looking at videos just doesn't cut it...
It's a pity I didn't manage to get his number, I was rushing for the next class... Hopefully, he'll be there next thurs again... Heh... In the meantime... it's time to print my notes and get to sleep... hur... stupid physics in life sciences lectures... I'd better get an A for this mod, or my 1000 CORS pts will be wasted... Bah...
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Thursday, January 19, 2006
Anyway... Yeah... Carol's style is quite different from Pat... but it's still nice to learn from... It'll help when there's freestyle involved, at least I'll have more moves to choose from then... I even managed to make it in time for Ishi's new class... R & B and Soul... heh... He's quite good... and his smooth style is damn nice... hehe... It's something different from Hip Hop I guess... although he still puts elements from hip hop into his choreo... the pace is definitely much slower... But much groovier.. hehe... Might consider going for his classes too... hee...
Hrm... I've been looking for people to play Ultimate Frisbee with, and now... guess what?? They're having Ultimate Frisbee for Science Open!! Daniel's interested in playing too... and I might be able to get Benny to play... just leaves the girls... Hrm... gotta have at least 2 girls in the team... any Science girls interested?? Heh... Gotta start practicing my throws soon... hur... anyone have a spare frisbee to lend me? Hehe...
I guess I'm more or less fine now... thanks for all the support and encouragement friends!! Those who have given me advice all this time, listen to me rant and bitch about everything... thanks for the listening ear... I know it's not easy to do that... but that's how I deal with things... I definitely can't keep things suppressed inside me... thats how I got a bad temper last time... Gotta let things out so I don't lose my temper... I guess I managed to irritate Val with that... heh... keep talking about things... Oh well... She can block me on MSN all she wants... guess that's how she deals with things... I'm not in any position to judge anymore...
Heh... it's kinda farney how when I needed help the most... the thing that really helped me, was when I watched Bruce Almighty on Sun... heh... Near the ending, God was asking Bruce what he wanted, and this is what he said...
God: Grace. You want her back?
Bruce: No. I want her to be happy, no matter what that means. I want her to find someone who will treat her with all the love she deserved from me. I want her to meet someone who will see her always as I do now, through Your eyes.
God: Now THAT'S a prayer.
Granted, it's just a movie and a script... but at that moment, something struck me... I don't know what... I guess, I just really want her to be happy... and if that means I can't talk to her, can't see her, if my talking to her just makes things worse for her, makes her depressed... then so be it... As long as that's what she wants, and she's happy... Then I'll be happy...
I don't really care if she reads this... it just feels good to write it out... One can't really hide from reality forever... so I guess I can't keep hiding behind hope when there is none...
Oh well... Good luck girl...
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Sunday, January 15, 2006
This is really hard for me to put into words... usually, I don't like to write things like this... but I feel that there should be two sides to a story... And this story is a very complicated one...
I don't deny that initially... I took up dance because I tot it would bring us closer... but now... I'm taking up dance for myself... I'm enjoying it... looking forward to every lesson that I go for...
I guess in a way... what she said was right... I was living life thru her... Thru her friends... her passion for dance... I wouldn't have known about dance, about blast, jitterbugs and studio wu... if it wasn't for her... And for that... I'll always be grateful to her...
I don't know if I'll ever love dance like she did... or be so passionate about it... but all I know now is that I'm enjoying the dance classes, and I want to see how far I can go...
We split up cos of circumstances... busy with school and work... didn't manage to really spend time with each other... It wasn't anyone's fault... We just drifted apart...
Guess I really have to get my own life... but with dance being something in common... there are bound to be some areas that overlap... Oh well...
I'll just see how things go...
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Tuesday, January 10, 2006
There once lived an ageing King who wanted to hand over his throne to one of his 3 sons. Wanting to test them, the king told his sons to search for the most beautiful thing in the world, and present it to him.
After some time, the 1st son came back, and presented an exotic flower to his father, saying that he found this flower in the fields, and felt that it was the most beautiful thing in the world. His father was impressed, but wanted to wait for the other two sons.
The 2nd son came back soon after, and presented a unique and somewhat glowing pebble to the king. He had found it under a remote water fall, and felt that it was the most beautiful thing in the world. Again, the king was impressed, but decided to hold on again.
Finally the 3rd son returned, but surprising, with empty hands. The king was mystified, and asked hurriedly for an explanation. The 3rd son then said this:
"Dear Father, I once saw this most exotic flower in the Shire Fields, but decided not to pluck it for you, because the flower will only look beautiful in the fields but not alone...I then came across this unique and glowing pebble under the Gondor Waterfalls, but decided against bringing it to you, because the pebble will only look beautiful with the waterfall, but not alone...."
The King then asked, :
"Son, so to you, what is the most beautiful thing you have brought back, or have you given up the search totally?"
Following which, the 3rd son replied:
"Father, the most beautiful thing in the world which i wish to present to you is my memories, my memories of the times i scoured across the lands searching for this elusive beautiful thing, my memories of the adventures i had, my memories of the lessons i learnt along the way which made me stronger, my memories of the times when i thought i would fall but pick myself up again, my memories of my companions who went through thick and thin with me, for without them i would never have been able to return here safely to you today."
"Father, sometimes in life what matters are the intangibles, the memories, which is the most beautiful thing in the world."
The 3rd son became the new king.
I guess in a way what the 3rd son says is very true... At the end of the day... when you're alone... Your memories and experiences are the only things that remain with you... They are the most beautiful thing you can ever have... Learn from them... and make yourself better... appreciate them, and you'll never lose yourself... What doesn't kill me only makes me stronger...
Slowly... one step at a time...
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Friday, January 06, 2006
I'm not gonna remove that post, even if it does sound very pathetic... it's just another reminder to me of my life... the ups and downs in it...
Thanks for the concern friends...
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Tuesday, January 03, 2006
If leaving you alone is going to make that easier, then so be it... I just want to get over things... so that I can have a life, and you won't hate me... I just hope we can still go for dance together... I'll just keep my distance...
I'm really doing this for myself... guess I just have to stop my old habits and start new ones... Please don't hate me... I'm feeling shitty enough...
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