Wednesday, December 28, 2005
Latin Jazz is damn nice man... hehe... Quite enjoyable... but really different from hip hop... gonna take a while to get used to... Think I might go with Val for Latin Jazz every week... hehe... Can learn how to be "proud"... heh...
Well... Let's see... Blast! auditions is on the 11th I think... and JitterBugs is open only after the new year... after that, I wanna try Pat's HIp Hop 1 and 2 as well... Then there's Studio Wu's Latin Jazz and Girls Hip Hop and Hip Hop... hrm... gonna be damn busy... hehe...
Oh well... change is good, and something different... Guess I need that in my life now... it's too boring now... Heh...
Gotta go rest then...
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Saturday, December 24, 2005
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Thursday, December 22, 2005
Hai~... really not in the mood for anything right now... Just wanna look ahead to the next sem and new opportunities...
Many of you may not know, but I've been taking up Hip Hop classes for a while now... Kinda got interested in it cos of Val, and decided to try something new... And after 8 weeks, I kinda feel that I'm getting to understand y she likes it that much... I don't deny that it's quite fun to learn, once you get over the fact of ppl seeing you move awkwardly and seeing yourself look silly in front of the mirror. It's also different everytime you go for class, the only repetitive part is the warm up, choreo each lesson is different, different moves, different skills to learn...
In a way, that actually suits me very well, I get bored if something becomes too repetitive... And since sec school days, I would get really bored if I do something too many times, like NCC, where drills are repeated everytime, or in canoeing, where it's the same thing every sat for training. Even tkd gets repetitive after a while, I'm not saying I don't like them, taking up those CCAs helped teach me somethings, but it kinda got boring after doing the same things for 2 years++...
With dance, there's something to learn every lesson, to get better, more fluid, stronger, laern more choreos... Esp when you've got a great group of friends to go with, that's even more enjoyable.
I guess right now, I'm enjoying learning new things, getting to know more people, meeting up with old friends... I don't want to remain stagnant anymore... Don't want to keep feeling sian all the time... I want more friends... More experiences in life... The slacker, is no more... In this reality, there are no places for slackers. In a perfect world, you could have the best of both worlds...
But the real world is far from perfect, and I'm not ready to give up yet... I want to see how much I can grow and change... I want a chance to try and catch up... get to the same level, understand what you are thinking...
I'm writing this down as a reminder to myself, to stop slacking, and start my growth again, the growth that I stopped because I was too scared to... I'm not going to be scared anymore... I'm going to be the new me... Friendly, outgoing and open to any opportunities...
All I'm asking is you give me a chance to make that change, no matter how long it'll take, I'm not ready to give up... I don't want to be only the best, but the right...
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Wednesday, December 21, 2005
Happened to be watching a few shows and movies and realised 2 things that were mentioned in the show that actually sounded quite profound.
Hope is the quintessential human delusion...
and
Denial is the most predictible of all human responses...
When you think about it, they do seem kinda true... I mean, everyone wants to have hope. But what really is hope? People always say that, "I HOPE there is some left", "I HOPE she's the one for me", "I HOPE I get that job"... So... wat does hope really mean? To wish something happens, or you get something you want? How many times does it really work, that you hope for something and it actually comes true?
Most of the time, we use "HOPE" when there seems to be none, or rather, to be more accurate, when there really is none, but we can't really take the truth about it, so we delude ourselves that there might still be some "HOPE" that what we want will happen...
So I guess, sometimes, hope really is a human delusion...
Denial is somewhat similar to hope... It's a human response, just like hope... but while we use hope to delude ourselves against the truth, denial is what we use to confront it...
Everytime we find something we don't like, don't want to hear or see, denial comes in and we find ourselves saying, "It can't be true" or "I don't believe it"... even if it really is the way things turned out...
So maybe hope precedes denial... when we hope against hope that something we want will happen, and when it doesn't, we deny that what has happened is true, because, it is not OUR truth...
Then how does one deal with these dual conumdrums of hope and denial?? I've only been able to come up with this way, but if anyone else has a way, I'd be glad to hear it...
We can deal with hope and denial, or to be more accurate, truths we'd rather not hear, by accepting things as they are. Even if they are not OUR TRUTHS, they are still true, and rather than fight for something that is impossible, embrace the truth, accept it, and just look ahead to the path laid before you... Enjoy what you can, then move ahead...
It's the only thing one can do... at least, that's what I feel...
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Sunday, December 18, 2005
Don't know what it is about this time, but it just brings out the worst sometimes... And I f***ing hate it, esp when I don't know what the hell is going on...
I'm typing this at F-ing 4am in the morning cos I can't get to sleep... and someone knows y...
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Friday, December 16, 2005
Idiot woman: Wat do you have to drink?
Manager: This is our drinks menu here, we have coffee, tea, herbal tea...
IW: Ok, Herbal tea, WHAT kinds of herbal tea???
Manager: There... *points at the list, which shows the types and descriptions*
....... Irritating customer... talk so loud, think's she's right... hate ppl like that... and they say Singaporeans don't know how to give good service? You as the customer dun even give us respect, treat us like servants and you want good service?? I'd rather hit you over the head with the menu and kick you out of the restaurant... Maybe someone should open a restaurant where the rule of thumb is, if you're not a good customer to our service staff, we have a RIGHT to be rude to you...
Hmph!!! Stuck up bitch...
This one isn't that bad... just a bit blur:
Female customer: Your Dirty Rice ah... Got rice issit???
Me:...... Er... Yah...
I really didn't know whether to laugh or cry... but she was a sweet little lady, so it was ok, not so loud and demanding as the first one... pui!
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Wednesday, December 07, 2005
Heh... Kinda miss working there... It was so nice to see familiar faces... even the bosses recognised me... hehe... The lady boss even mentioned that she hasn't seen me in a while, told her had exams so took a 2 month break... heh...
Brian the manager commented that I look like I lost weight... hehe... maybe a bit lah... think it was more obvious around my face... well... that's what eating less than 3 meals a day will do to you... kinda lost my appetite during the exams period with the stress and ungodly hours... heh... guess the habit's still there... not hungry when I wake up, I can eat like one meal a day... heh... I know it's not good, but I also can't force myself to eat... not much will go in... just a bit of food once in a while and a solid meal for dinner... heh...
Big O has a new menu, so I had to learn a few new things, as well as new specials... They now have a lunch and dinner special... took away the cake and coffee combos... and the lunch special stretches till 5 plus... heh..
Plus, for Christmas, they have log cakes!! Truffle as well as Spike D log cakes!! I'm SO going to get one for Christmas... hehe...
Heh... some of the dishes on the new menu look kinda nice... might want to try them soon... heh... Somethings also changed there, we now have dispensers for tomato and chili sauce, it's a change from using the bottle... heh... at least now I don't have to shake the tomato sauce bottle like crazy to get it to come out of the bottle...
Gonna be working again tmr... guess I'd better sleep soon... ciao~
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Friday, December 02, 2005
Before that, Val surprised me with a dinner at Big O, with KF and Jenny there... heh... Thanks guys!! We even had a Spike D and Baileys Me... hehe... Think that one shot of baileys was good... hehe... Big O even has a Spike D log cake now!! Hehe... Think I'll get one for christmas... hehe...
Then KF and Jenny surprised me with this!!
New ear studs!!
Nice!!! Big bling!!! Hehe... Well... why'd you think they would give me this?? Cos earlier in the day, I went to do this!!!
My ear piercing!! A bit blur though... heh..
Yeah!! I finally went to pierce my ear... hehe... Really time for a change yeah... New hairstyle, piercing... heh... Think it's time I spice up my life... hee...
Anyway... Zouk was packed, but we still managed to get in, and dance all that stress off... Plus, there were some 'very interesting' moments too... heh... Can't believe that all the freaking chinese guys there would actually be the pervs...
I guess I missed clubbing... even though I hate the crowd and all... but when there's really good music, the groove just gets you... heh... It's good to finally be able to let out all the stress and frustrations... even if it is just for a night... but it felt really good... Heh... might consider making mambo a weekly affair... hee...
Btw... Go catch Chicken Little!! I managed to catch it today!! Damn farney and cute!!! Hehe.... Quick!! Go watch it before the sky falls down!!
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