Monday, February 19, 2007
We ended up talking for nearly 2 hours... Talked about nearly everything... his life, work, my life, work... future plans... blah lah blah... Hehe... And we both came to a conclusion that its easier to see things from a 3rd person's point of view, especially when you're in the situation as well... It's quite hard to look at yourself from an external view, since your judgement might be clouded... thats y its always good to have friends around who can give you their honest opinions on your actions... And you can see how it looks like from other people's points of view... Call it friendly feedback if you want to... Hehe...
While talking to him, I realised, as did he, what my weakness was... It was a kinda sad revelation, but useful nontheless... and like all the other weaknesses I've overcome, I will overcome this one... Its just too bad I've got to be this brutal about it...
Hope my brudder's doing fine though... Hang in there bro!! 4 months to end of Hons!! Step by step does it... I'll try to come and visit when I can... Haha...
We talked about choices again too... Realism vs idealism... Being realistic vs being idealistic... Both of us are realistic people, we do have dreams, but sometimes, in present society, one has to be realistic in their goals first, to reach those dreams of ours... Like what he said, hold on to those dreams, but set realistic goals as well... Sounds cheem... and maybe its cos I'm still tanked up with cough meds making me drowsy.. Hehe..
But as always, we both learned things from our chats over the phone... It's time I started getting serious and sacrifice some things for the greater good... or rather, MY greater good... Hehe...
We kinda realised we've got some sort of role reversal now... when he was having fun, I was the studying no lifer... and when I'm having fun now, he's the one stuck in lab with no social life... Hee... I admit, I'm somewhat a late bloomer... probably cos I was kinda brought up thinking that there would be time for fun after studies... Now... well... its time to get serious... with my future... there's still time to have fun, just less thats all...
What I'm planning on, is working in SG for a while, then maybe further overseas, or if I really dun see a need to further by then, just stay in SG, work, get a nice bachelor pad, personal transport... and try to give my parents a better retirement life... My dream though, which I will hold on to... is to leave behind some sort of legacy... And show that nice guys can finish first... =)
Thanks for the chat bro... hope everything will get better for you... See ya when I can...
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Friday, February 16, 2007
Supposed to watch Pan's Labyrinth with her on Tues after Impresario practice... But... apparently, I booked the wrong tickets... Argh... Don't know why I did too... I'm usually very careful about booking things like this...
We were supposed to watch the movie at Vivo.. since it was nearer to school and we were leaving from school... But apparently... I booked the movie at Plaza instead... and ONLY realised it when I was trying to get the tickets at vivo... sheesh...
Since it was too late to go plaza, we just decided to forgo the movie and head for dinner... Heh... Sushi Tei... lol... 2 salmon sashimis, 2 fried salmon and one plate of fried salmon skin... Lol... Yeah... I realised everything we ordered was salmon as well... Haha... Not that anything's wrong with that... Hehe... I love salmon too... =)
If there's one animal I can always associate with her, it would be a cat.. lol... *Meowr* with claws and everything... Hahaha...
Headed down to orchard after that to look for some stuff... She wanted to get a certain item for her best friend... Hehe... Apparently, the shops that had it sold out... so... I made a phone call... Lol...
Yes, I do have some connections... and they are proving quite useful these days... Haha... Need games cheap? I know someone... Need help with looking for something? I might know someone too... I even asked a shop to stay open for me while I rushed down, cos I knew someone working there... Haha... Seems like I'm using that sentence quite often lately... Seems like I keep running into situations where I know someone who might be able to help... Hrm... Wonder what that means... Someone up there telling me something??
Anyway, yes, I found that item and I'm waiting for it to arrive... the power of the internet eh.. Lol...
Ended off with Starbucks coffee, a 'loansharks' handphone and being pampered with a manicure.. lol... weird way to end the day... Haha... But all in all, it was a great day... Buffet lunch with a friend, impresario practice, then dinner and coffee with great company... The best pre-V day I've had... lol...
But now I'm down with cough and flu... hai~... hate it when you get sick so close to the holidays... Tried to get better by sleeping it off with meds and cough mixture... It knocked me out for 9 hours at least... gave me weird and funny dreams... all I remember is the last part of my dream... a very nice moment... that somehow... I hope might come true...
Not that I want to sound mystical or anything, but usually, things I dream of, have a weird way of coming true sooner or later... be it bad or good... this time, I hope its good... =)
Labels: movies, musings, social life
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Tuesday, February 13, 2007
So I drove, with my sister hitching a ride... We went down to Sim Lim to pick the monitor, and came away with a new monitor, new keyboard and new power supply.. lol... Talk about future proofing... Wahaha...
Traffic there was bad, as usual... Sim Lim's carpark was still FULL, but yet ppl kept wanting to go in and try their luck... I decided to park at Burlington, more ex, but at least I got a space in like 2 mins.. lol...
After getting everything and throwing it in the trunk, we walked to Bugis... and next time, during a weekend, DO NOT use the crossing opposite Bugis Village... It was so damn packed cos some SMART guy decided that there wasn't a need to make the traffic lights on both sides of the road coincide... Like duh~... Such high volume of human traffic and you dun let them cross the road completely, all of them got stuck on the centre divider... Like it was NYE party or something... literally cannot move an inch...
Took 3 changes of the traffic light to cross... and apparently, even the train was bad... Callie told me she had to skip 3 trains to get from the north line to city hall cos they were all packed, and THEN, skip another 2 trains to get to bugis cos it was packed as well... Sheesh... Wat's with bugis ppl???
Ran into Xu zi there too... so I drove 3 of us down to kallang, avoiding the road at bugis, taking beach road instead... Hahaha... but we were still kinda late... slight jam... Hai... if the government is gonna consider having 6.5mil people in Singapore. PLS CONSIDER WIDENING THE ROADS FIRST!!!
Chingay practice was kinda boring... waited quite a while for things to get going... and we ended around 9 plus... Left after everything ended, once Pat said he had nothing for us anymore, I packed up and left... Damn hungry... lol...
I ended up at Prinsep with Nic... cos I told her I'd bring her for seesha... hehe... So we just stoned there watching soccer and talking about general things... Hehe... Oh yeah... I have yet to get pics from her... Nic!! I want the pics!! Lol...
Drove her back to her place, and took a very nice drive all the way home... Why very nice? Cos it was just me, in the car... radio on, clear roads... and a slightly heavy right foot... Ahaha... After all... I had to top up the tank when I got the car... previous owner left only 2 bars in the indicator, way below 3/4 tank... when I went to pump, it was 28l empty!! Luckily the fuel is paid for by the company... Hehe...
Anyway, yeah... had a nice chat and good company on the way to Serangoon to drop Nic off, then took Jln Eunos all the way back to Bedok... Had fun pushing the car a bit too... Hehe... Late at night, it was around 1am by then... Hehe... not many cars on the road... my right foot got a bit heavy... Hee...
But I just love it... The freedom you get from just driving... and nothing else... you're safely coccooned in this metallic shell that prevents everything else from getting at you... When I'm driving alone, all I care about is, me, the car and the road I'm driving on... Everything else just melts away... It also helps me to do some pondering and such... If I had my own car, everytime I felt shitty, or had things mulling in my mind, I'd just take the car, and drive... Don't really need to have any real destination... just the drive is enough...
Some ppl feel that cars sometimes overcompensate for something the person lacks... To me, the car is an extension of myself... Where I want to go, it goes... guess thats why I won't be satisfied with an underpowered car... its has got to go where I want it to, when I want it to, at the speed I want it to go...
I'll never get sick of driving... just that feeling of calm, that freedom you get when you drive... it just can't be described by any one word... Be it 60 on normal roads, or 100+ on expressways... I'll always enjoy it... The whole week I just felt myself waiting for the time when I could drive again... and when my sis and I went to get the car, I could feel myself quicken my pace, widen my strides, just so I could get to the car asap, get behind the wheel and start the engine...
I picked up my sis for supper later that night too... after I dropped off my stuff at home, she changed and we went for supper nearby before returning the car... Although I did feel a pang of disappointment at not being able to drive anymore, I was actually satisfied that I HAD driven... Satisfied that I had managed to experience the freedom and joy of driving...
It's really... The Drive of My Life... =)
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Wednesday, February 07, 2007
Sheesh... What the hell is the BIG GUY up there trying to tell me?? I wish I knew man... I really wish I did... hai~...
Guess xiaoyuan really described my mood this morning really well... 'Du lan'...
Hai~...
I'm SO looking forward to this weekend, really need the company and the drive... =)
Labels: musings
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Tuesday, February 06, 2007
My mind's a blank... so is my mood... Nothing really makes me very happy right now... Its not that I'm not enjoying what I'm doing... I do enjoy it when there's dance practices, be it impre or chingay... It's fun going clubbing too, esp with people who know how to have fun as well... But the happiness is just fleeting... Short fleeting moments, that disappear just as fast as they appear...
I start to ask myself why... Why do I go partying? For the music and the dancing? Or the people? Or just to get away from everything? Is there actually a point in all this? Or am I just catching up with all the other times I wasn't able to club, before I graduate and I can't anymore?
That being said, do I really want a standard 8 to 5 job? Even if its what I really want to do, I still want to be able to have my freedom. I never liked to be tied down with committments that I didn't want to have in the first place.
Think I'll be musing about this for quite a while. Maybe I should just do what I want to do, and let everything else come naturally, and stop worrying so much... Hehe....
Labels: musings
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