Monday, December 20, 2004

Sigh~... I just did it again.... How many frickin' times can I actually make one person pissed in 24 hours?? To count... this is the 3rd time... Sheesh... I guess I should really just shut up... speak when spoken to... that kind of thing... Think before I speak... or in this case... type... That's y I'm typing this really slow... trying not to make it a 4th time...

But then... thinking about it... I was actually spoken to... and I still made the person pissed... Guess I should really try to shut up instead... take more than just a split second to reply to anything... really THINK and consider my answer...

My course commander once told me Empty Vessels Make the Most Noise... and told us to try and talk less... since then... I tried so hard to do that... guess after so long... the old habits just creeped back in... and I'm becoming an Empty Vessel again...

I try to avoid conflicts... I really hate to argue... I feel arguments just don't lead to anywhere... esp when both ppl are heated up... I just want to move on... So ok, I made a mistake, I said something wrong... Is it so hard to just tell me what's wrong and forgive me?

Sometimes... sometimes I just think... if I keep making you pissed... then y stay with me? Wouldn't you be better off without me? I think you'd have a more carefree life... But then... the moment that pops up, I brush it aside... cos I believe that if you keep thinking it, then it will come true... and I don't want that to happen... I've always believed that we can still go strong... this is but a small bump in the road that I have to weather...

I'm really sorry I said that... maybe I even squashed some of your fun with that... I really am... I can't go back and change what I said... but if I could, I would... I really would...

I really can't think of anything else to say... between the MSN, this and SMS... I've said all I could... Just forgive me pls?

I'm sorry.....

you have just Slacked with Chris @ 2:33 AM

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